Long Update...lots going on!

This has been a very busy ane crazy time...and not much of it has to do with the holiday season. My mother in law has been visiting since November 19th and Emily has grown a rather nice size spanish vocabulary as a result of it. I had been subsitute teaching during the month of December since Emily can be with her grandma. It was rather wonderful to go back into the classroom and enjoy teaching without the stress of having my own class and all the added responsiblity! Gus has been working around the clock...well not really but it feels like it. Jake has had his moments in school but over all has been a pretty good kid. Jonathan as well. He has of course made some teenage decisions hastily that make me insane but overall he has been calming down a lot better and talking slower. The boys just left yesterday to spend Christmas with their father and his family. They are over the top excited to be there. Jake has seen his dad a handful of times this year for very short, I mean VERY short visits, so he was most excited! Two whole weeks! I, on the other hand, am sad. Not just because I have to share them for the holidays, but because after the holidays Jonathan will continue to stay with his father and try school there. I feel like I am being selfless in this move as Jonathan WANTS to live with his dad. What 14 yr old boy doesn't need his dad, but I am broken that I feel like I have failed. Gus told me that I couldn't give Jonathan what he needed because what he needed was his father...and make clearly I am not him at all. I know that this is a trial to see if he does better but never in a million years would I have thought that my fist born, or any of my children for that matter, would leave me in childhood or be seperated from their siblings. I am rather tearful and sad. What a sacrfice my son has endured for the failings of his parents. I wish ever party knew how impactful their decisons were on him. Ok, so before this turns ugly let me give you good news.
Gus and I are expecting our second child this July. July 4th to be exact although I think it will be at the end of June. We are excited that Emily will be a big sister and this little one will be the caboose. Hear me now, no more babies! The factory will be closing! Out of business! Aside from all of this, and let me tell you it's a lot! Things are going well. We had a fun Thanksgiving and are gearing up for Christmas. Be blessed this holiday and upcoming New Year!